Wednesday, 9 March 2016

i'm my own best friend and my worst enemy

coffee and whiskey
coffee and whiskey

i'm finally warm inside
i got nostalgic and hallucinated a whole memory
i danced around naked and i got naughty
i wanted a warm body but it didn't have to be you
i hope you don't think you're anything else but
convenient

i'm sorry
i don't like to talk or flirt
not really
i don't like boys or girls
not really
i like any pleasure that makes me forget
makes all the voices in my head go shhhh
if you're good then we're set i'm silent
if not then let's do it all the same but
give me a hit first

coffee and whiskey
coffee and whiskey

i've let myself be used and torn just to see if it helped it didn't
everyone wants to feel they matter
not really
everyone likes to feel that conversations aren't just monologues
not really
i hope my grandmama don't find out
i've been lost for ages but i only started showing this last months
i've been quieter yet louder when i open my dirty mouth
and say anything, please anything


coffee and whiskey
coffee and whiskey
wake me up and put me to sleep
feeling safe and warm all over

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