coat your knife with medicine and thrust into me, a wound can heal but only the dead can be reborn

you are the shell of a psycho, i seen it in your eyes and i knew without knowing. a killing smile, 

i want to belong to you so you can kiss me while you choke me and use me as you like

but you are also a nice care bear, you look like jesus, you make me write my stupid poetry again

i think about you all the time, oh god i hope i could say this things to you, i love honesty, but-

maybe i shouldn't, anything

i drown in insecurities, my head explodes, i wish i could just shut up, this is no good, nothing is good enough when you are the one who can bring me silence

this dependence-

i want safety, i'm so scared, all this terrible thoughts and sometimes the voices, the sensations make me spasm, sometimes i can't control my body

you'll get tired of me

everyone does, i did too

fuck this shit

i want to be treated nicely and cartoons of me as little animals and all those fucking things-

there is this constant knot of fear around my neck, a threat that keeps me still, i can never accept such-

i keep meaning to tell you how i've never felt this good, how no one ever really cared, but what if you don't really care
and think i'm stupid, 'cause i'm stupid, but what if it makes you go away, it'll make you go away

i never thought i would feel this way, no matter how cliche that is, it is isn't it

oh well

coat your knife with medicine, wound me and heal me and numb me at last