It keeps you up all night (why are you alive, Columbine?)

Sleep deprivation is much like the side effects of cocaine, thinks Columbine. Only I prefer the latter.
But lately there's so much more of the former- her hands shake, she feels numb, and for the whole day she can't complete even the simplest of the tasks. Great, more wasted time. Like she didn't have plenty of it already.

There are few things Columbine hates more than wasting time (like hiccups and existence).

Sleep deprivation is a constant reminder of what you've done wrong. You're alone in the Universe. All hope is useless. You should just die, it whispers in your ear.

Why are you alive, Columbine?
Where do you think you are going?
Why are you alive?